Are you with me now???
Don't get me wrong. Fall is one of my favorite times of year. Football, thanksgiving, the beautiful leaves changing color... and did I say football? ;) Its the cold stuff I don't like. I hate to shiver. Teeth start chattering, and heaven forbid you try to talk when that happens...."What? Molly, stop speaking Spanglish and tell me what you are saying". So frustrating. I have to sleep with thick socks (which, i cant complain about, I love my fuzzy socks) and half the time I'm hovered over my husband like he is a space heater. Poor Guy!
Well, A change in subject. Something a little more personal.
I had horrible cysts on my ovaries at the beginning of this month. Its very frustrating to me seeing that I have had surgery, seen a specialist, and I'm taking a birth control that is supposed to lessen them to where I barely get them EVER. Not quite. I have been getting them every three months. That's 4 times a year in complete pain. Overbearing I cant walk and this is worse than childbirth pain. OUCH! It has really got me thinking of my options. In the moment of pain I get so frustrated and almost every time I yell saying I want a hysterectomy. But do I really want that? noooooooo. I do want another baby. My other options at this point are 1. Have surgery again. I would totally do it if my doctor were up for it. But he is not wanting to do that. or 2. Get on this medicine that will make my ovary's stop working. It makes you temporally infertile. The difference between this and birth control? This gives you no periods (kinda scary, it would be nice to not have the monthly mother nature visit, but not worth it), and there is a risk of permanent infertility.
I'm not wanting to have a baby now... I want to wait like 2 more years. I would love another, but I don't feel I'm in the right place to have one right now. Our family has alot to work on. So, I guess its stick to the sucky plan that I'm on and suffer every 3 months or so.
On a positive note:
Sterling is getting so smart. Talking so much. He surprises us every day. He says words and Mike and I wonder where he learned them from. Not only that, but he is also learning Spanish and Marshalese at school! The other day at school he said Night night in Marshalese! cracks me up how kids pick up on things. I love to watch him learn!
My job is still going well. I just fit right in. Picked everything up in 2 days almost!
It makes me happy to know I'm needed and appreciated for my work! Its been a great change. Next change? New car. It is needed so badly. After taxes come its the 1st thing on our list! AMEN!
Well, That's all for now.